Getting serious

Don't have a lot to say....just dealing with a lot....need prayer! Will post some tomorrow when I am more awake and can function!

<3
Rachel

Today

Had fun today!

Not doing anything exciting just living life started out well and then it went down hill after the kids bickered about everything and just got on to finishing their reading. When and dropped Evelyn off at Sci-quest for her day camp(it was about magic and optical illusions). Got Collin's hair cut which he and I didn't like but in order to make the helmet fit right we had to say goodbye to the hair we were both very sad but when you change your hair it doesn't change who you are and that is what I have to remind him (so proud of him). after that we picked up Evelyn and went to dicks(a sports store) and got Collin practice pants and cleats and mouth guard and for Evelyn we got cleats, shin guards, socks, shorts and shirts and water bottle. And after we spent about $200 on that we came home and went swimming. It was a full day. We did have them try everything on and that was so fun! Next pay check will be dance clothes!

Football

I have been having so much fun lately! I don't feel so oppressive anymore, I feel a lot of hope that things will get better and Alabama will be home finally! I have been feeling like I don't fit here, and I think it was because of the people I was in relationship with. Now I have hope, I want to be around people who are not self centered, and who think really promoting Christ is the main point of Church and being cool doesn't and shouldn't enter our minds. I want to be with people who really love their kids and want to do what is best for them, I am determined that I want to be with my kids all the time I only get so many years to show them Christ's love, and help them see their place in the world.

Anyway,
I have been attending Collin's football practices and it has been a joy to see him stretching and doing drills and tackling and running. Even when he has been in pain because of his helmet being to tight. Just love that little boy, he just keeps going!

May ??,2009

I have been hearing more people on twitter, so it just seems funny, that everyone is joining on the band wagon! Nothing of consequence, I have been feeling that God is allowing things to slow down so I can focus on him and what he is saying to me. And just to rejuvenate and just to enjoy this time with the kids! Next year we are homeschooling and looking forward to discovering the world with my kids. And giving them a calm feeling about the world, and not the rushed paced that the world wants us to run at. And for my son the beginning the summer won't be much fun because it is behavior boot camp.

Love mrs. towers
I appreciate all her love, understand and patience with Collin. And always accentuating the positive in him.

May 20,2009

Well, today is a mac&cheese day meaning nothing big is going on. But the older I get the more I love mac&cheese days, these are the days that I get to relax and the only thing I really have to worry about is picking up the kids from school and baseball practice. The little girls are really wonderful they play together so well, and Caroline is gentle and loving with Norah, eventhough she still gets a little jealous and wants to be feed baby food and have a bottle and be carried around and gets mad when we hold the baby "to long" and she tells us to put her down. I always concidered it an adventure to have young kids and make sure they are happy and satisfied. Caroline is my biggest challenge yet. So hoping that she doesn't smear poop like Collin did.

Anyway, I started this blog to talk about God in my life a "normal", average stay at home mom. I am personally sick and tired of Church as it is now and this is my way of rebelling. So I hope to speak more on that, I love Rob Bell, Leonard Sweet, and Beth Moore, I am also a conservative and can't stand Obama, and I feel like he wants power and not really concerned with the people who really live here. I also feel strongly that acorn is the reason he got elected, and with voter fraud, I also feel strongly that he brought with him the politics of Illonis fhat is coruption. Call me crazy.

Any, Caroline is no where to be seen or heard so I am going to end this post for now....bye...

well "it's deep" lol

Don't have much to say but the birthday of my oldest just passed, she was born on may 17, 2000 at 2:30 in the morning. I am still in love with her chocolate brown eyes! I am also enjoying the last week of school, still so busy with baseball and softball, and Evelyn's dance. Looking forward to the summer and looking forward to getting homeschooling. I have been very happy and very frustrated, I hope everything just sorts its self out. So tired of fighting to be nice, I am fighting myself, and just feel like throwing up my hands. I know God feels like that with me sometimes, I just hope people are listen to him. I am rambling now. Most of the time I just feel like staying in my own little home and not going outside and not caring about anyone or anything. Still think, since moving down here I have not found a "normal" so I go from being OK to depression and at this point not sure what to do about it. Just wish I could find my normal and be my old self................. :0)

Spending time.......??????

It has been an exciting couple of weeks with moving and now everyone being sick....So I have been spending alot of time with my kids and more over alot of time at the doctors office with my kids. So last week it was Collin he was home for a week (wednesday to tuesday), I thought I would get a break.... especially from the expense of drugs $120 for the antibotic and that is for the generic needless to say I had a small cow, especially when I went back to the dr and asked is she had been drinking and who actually has that kind of money when they have four kids. I think I am done with that rant now. And back to my main point that we all need to have time with our kids and I am glad that I got a whole week to snuggle with Collin and just to help him feel valued and it was nice to lay in bed with him and have nothing else to do but love on him. And now it seems like it is Evelyn's turn to be sick with mom, and to just be with me, it is crazy that they don't mind being sick, so We did nails, and gone to mcd's and talking about miscellanous things, and I know she will grow up and be gone but the important thing is to build that trust while she is still young so when she gets older she will trust you before she trust anyone else. So I am looking forward to her as an older Evelyn, she is beautiful now I can't wait until .....I am so proud of her but Collin on the other hand I can wait for because he's my baby boy, and it is different because Evelyn is moving from the child to young lady and Collin is still in the Child phase.

So all in all, it has been very expensive week but I have enjoyed the time I spent with them, and so grateful for the children that I have. My dad always reminds me of a saying from roseann the tv sitcom and it goes something like this "I always wanted children, just not the ones I've got" I can honestly say I have the children that I have always wanted. I am glad I have this craziness, it wouldn't be much fun with out them!

I do have an Idea for Obama and that is put in a cap on all medications like antibotics are 20, and just make the health afford able instead of pay the out rageous cost regulated the price.

my Evelyn now

So Beautiful!

who we really are.....................

I guess I have taught my oldest daughter well............

One of my biggest point is to teach her that being popular is not what life is about. How many times do we wonder who am I? what are my gifts? why does God want me here? SO.... this morning we had a fight about putting her hair up.. and she runs screaming from me, mainly because she doesn't want her hair up but she yells as she screams"I don't want to be popular"

I asked her what does having your hair up have to do with being poplar, she said only the popular girls have their hair up. On one level I totally understand what she is saying she just wants to be Evelyn the girl that God made her to be. I just need to get to the bottom of why she doesn't want to be well dressed and be presentable and look like a little girl. I always tell her that she is beautiful and could win any contest for being gorgous(hope I spelled that right) but I guess I want her to know that she is so much more than a size and beauty. I never want her to be average, I want her to stand out in a crowd for her spirit her heart and for loving God and always leaving the places she visits with a rememberance of her love for everyone. I love Evelyn for so many things but mostly for her ability to realize and care for others even when she feels like it is unfair. I know I am so much harder on her because I realize I have 2 more following her lead, I just hope I don't screw it up. She had the job of teaching Caroline and Norah about sex, relationships, how to dress, peroids and all the stuff, if I die or leave this earth. Sad and morbid thought, she knows this and she loves being that person that the girls love.

She is becomming rebellious at such a young age....but I guess she has learned from the best....ME.
Thank you my angel, my eve, my Radiant one, the life giver, I have learned so much from you thank you for being my daughter, and for being to wonderful for words!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ummmmm...................................................

Well, it has been a busy year! We moved last week to a new home, It is really nice and I am glad I moved. It has been really good for our family, much more space and in the places we need it. Our master bedroom has become like a rec room it has an area for tv/movies, computer, and exercise. And we have Jaymie to thank! thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you! Jaymie. And also want to thank Eric and Shelby and Sarah Jayne, and Jaymie and Jeff and Kaleb and Isabella and Emma, and Zach and wonderful neighbor girl Kayla.

Thank you all for making things so smooth!

Sooooo.. It's almost April

I do miss talking about my day, my intention with blogging was to writ everyday and now it has turned into once a year. Just joking.. Currently, I am with my youngest and she has decided that sleeping in a swing is no longer comfortable so she is struggleing to get comfortable. Funny but not really funny, and I have no Idea how I am going to get Norah and Caroline to sleep in the same room? Never done this one before. We are going to move in a month and they will be shareing a room there as well. Anyway just thinking.

Sorry, My brain is not in a very enlightened mood!

new year

Norah Marie at 4 months

Rose Petal Cottage

Well, Happy New Year

I don't have to much to say other than it has been 4 months since my baby girl Norah Marie was born and I am so grateful that she is finally sleeping 5/6 hours at a stretch. It has been an interesting couple of weeks, for christmas I went to virginia from alabama and got back the 3rd of January. Part of the reason I came back was to see a girlfriend and her hubby do communion. For me it is just the joy of being apart of someone's life, and then inviting me in, I so love that. Anyway, I really enjoyed the time I had with my family, so wished I could have spent more time with my Dad. So love both my parents and both have been so supportive since moving to Alabama. I think part of the reason I didn't want to move down here was because I was afraid that they would forget me, that sounds really sad but it is true but I am so glad that they love me enough to support me through what has been such an adjustment.

So that is a recap of the past few weeks, What I am really excited about is the sales! I know what you are thinking....typical woman loves to shop.....I hate to shop unless I have something to shop for like Caroline has a birthday comming up and she will be 2 on the 17th of January, so Just my luck I found the Rose Petal Cottage original price was 85.99 on sale for 42.55 or something like that were also able to find the cradle and changing table which is what she is into now anyways. I was also in search of a coat or some kind of outergarment for when it is cold, I go looking at Target and find a wool pea coat original price 59.99 on sale for 38.00, Then just tonight I am/was in need of a new bible (the pages of my message bible came completely out of the leather casing...crazy I know) the price on the bible was 59.99 and right before she rung it up I asked if their were any sales and the price ended up being 9.99 how awesome is that. I guess it is God providing for me and Caroline which is so cool!! Anyway just wanted to share!