Monday, April 20, 2009

who we really are.....................


I guess I have taught my oldest daughter well............

One of my biggest point is to teach her that being popular is not what life is about. How many times do we wonder who am I? what are my gifts? why does God want me here? SO.... this morning we had a fight about putting her hair up.. and she runs screaming from me, mainly because she doesn't want her hair up but she yells as she screams"I don't want to be popular"

I asked her what does having your hair up have to do with being poplar, she said only the popular girls have their hair up. On one level I totally understand what she is saying she just wants to be Evelyn the girl that God made her to be. I just need to get to the bottom of why she doesn't want to be well dressed and be presentable and look like a little girl. I always tell her that she is beautiful and could win any contest for being gorgous(hope I spelled that right) but I guess I want her to know that she is so much more than a size and beauty. I never want her to be average, I want her to stand out in a crowd for her spirit her heart and for loving God and always leaving the places she visits with a rememberance of her love for everyone. I love Evelyn for so many things but mostly for her ability to realize and care for others even when she feels like it is unfair. I know I am so much harder on her because I realize I have 2 more following her lead, I just hope I don't screw it up. She had the job of teaching Caroline and Norah about sex, relationships, how to dress, peroids and all the stuff, if I die or leave this earth. Sad and morbid thought, she knows this and she loves being that person that the girls love.

She is becomming rebellious at such a young age....but I guess she has learned from the best....ME.
Thank you my angel, my eve, my Radiant one, the life giver, I have learned so much from you thank you for being my daughter, and for being to wonderful for words!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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