Searching

I hear God speaking to my heart "What are you searching for?" I always respond out of habit "I don't know!" But deep down I do know I just don't want to give voice to it. I am looking for you,I know your are what I need! Lord I want to find you! And all that your choose to give me. Help me to fill my need with you and not something else that is so empty but fulfills me for a moment. I am seeking for you. What my next move will be, I am so Sorry for being mad at you for being so bitter about moving down here. Being planted by you, or being transplanted by you can go 2 ways:1) I can choose to refuse the soil and nutrution you give me or 2) I can choose to get used to the soil and learn a new way to grow and get the nutrition I need to produce big beautiful flowers. I thank you for your Spirit being ever patient and kind to me.

Thank you Jesus, Help me to know you are near!