May ??,2009

I have been hearing more people on twitter, so it just seems funny, that everyone is joining on the band wagon! Nothing of consequence, I have been feeling that God is allowing things to slow down so I can focus on him and what he is saying to me. And just to rejuvenate and just to enjoy this time with the kids! Next year we are homeschooling and looking forward to discovering the world with my kids. And giving them a calm feeling about the world, and not the rushed paced that the world wants us to run at. And for my son the beginning the summer won't be much fun because it is behavior boot camp.

Love mrs. towers
I appreciate all her love, understand and patience with Collin. And always accentuating the positive in him.

May 20,2009

Well, today is a mac&cheese day meaning nothing big is going on. But the older I get the more I love mac&cheese days, these are the days that I get to relax and the only thing I really have to worry about is picking up the kids from school and baseball practice. The little girls are really wonderful they play together so well, and Caroline is gentle and loving with Norah, eventhough she still gets a little jealous and wants to be feed baby food and have a bottle and be carried around and gets mad when we hold the baby "to long" and she tells us to put her down. I always concidered it an adventure to have young kids and make sure they are happy and satisfied. Caroline is my biggest challenge yet. So hoping that she doesn't smear poop like Collin did.

Anyway, I started this blog to talk about God in my life a "normal", average stay at home mom. I am personally sick and tired of Church as it is now and this is my way of rebelling. So I hope to speak more on that, I love Rob Bell, Leonard Sweet, and Beth Moore, I am also a conservative and can't stand Obama, and I feel like he wants power and not really concerned with the people who really live here. I also feel strongly that acorn is the reason he got elected, and with voter fraud, I also feel strongly that he brought with him the politics of Illonis fhat is coruption. Call me crazy.

Any, Caroline is no where to be seen or heard so I am going to end this post for now....bye...

well "it's deep" lol

Don't have much to say but the birthday of my oldest just passed, she was born on may 17, 2000 at 2:30 in the morning. I am still in love with her chocolate brown eyes! I am also enjoying the last week of school, still so busy with baseball and softball, and Evelyn's dance. Looking forward to the summer and looking forward to getting homeschooling. I have been very happy and very frustrated, I hope everything just sorts its self out. So tired of fighting to be nice, I am fighting myself, and just feel like throwing up my hands. I know God feels like that with me sometimes, I just hope people are listen to him. I am rambling now. Most of the time I just feel like staying in my own little home and not going outside and not caring about anyone or anything. Still think, since moving down here I have not found a "normal" so I go from being OK to depression and at this point not sure what to do about it. Just wish I could find my normal and be my old self................. :0)